Today was a bit on the difficult side. First things first, my voice has returned. On the other hand I have a cough that just won't go away. Greg got up at 8 am to get started on the tree. His Dad made it up about 30 minutes after Greg started cutting it up. It took them 2.5 hours to pull the tree off the other one and get it cut. Of course, no damage until they pulled the part that was caught in the other trees. It broke three planks on the fence behind the property. I am glad it wasn't anything more than that.
I went with a friend today to show her second hand stores for baby clothing. I have not really looked at baby clothers, nor do I pay any attention to them at the store. I did some shopping for Cadence and just avoided the baby stuff as much as possible.
We went to Rob's for the UFC fight. It was nice to hang out. Before that we ended up going to Costco, Chili's and Best Buy...It was a busy Saturday. Greg got a new phone and I have to wait to get a new one which I think is crappy, but what can you do?
All in all it was a good day.
Monday, February 7, 2011
75 days and counting
I got just a hair behind so I am playing catch-up for the days I missed. LOL.
Today was a very relaxing chill day at work. It was just nice that the sun was out and looked so beautiful. Just the thinking at Spring time and all the things that I want to do. I am going to attempt a garden this year with Strawberries, Peppers, Green beans, Cucumbers, Broccoli, Kale...not sure what else I want to add to that list. Since I have had issues with my flowers upfront, I am going to make a raised bed and grow fresh herbs...parsley, oregano, basil, lavendar and rosemary. I will plant a few flowers for color, but I am looking forward to doing all of that.
Greg comes home tonight. I am super excited since this will be the last weekend he sees me for 45 days! I am hoping to lose another 10 pounds by the time he gets back. I need it to get warm so Cadence and I can start walking at night...That's another thing, she is too big to sit and ride in the stroller plus she can't walk a far as I like to walk so the only option I have is to buy a wagon and pull her.
Today was a very relaxing chill day at work. It was just nice that the sun was out and looked so beautiful. Just the thinking at Spring time and all the things that I want to do. I am going to attempt a garden this year with Strawberries, Peppers, Green beans, Cucumbers, Broccoli, Kale...not sure what else I want to add to that list. Since I have had issues with my flowers upfront, I am going to make a raised bed and grow fresh herbs...parsley, oregano, basil, lavendar and rosemary. I will plant a few flowers for color, but I am looking forward to doing all of that.
Greg comes home tonight. I am super excited since this will be the last weekend he sees me for 45 days! I am hoping to lose another 10 pounds by the time he gets back. I need it to get warm so Cadence and I can start walking at night...That's another thing, she is too big to sit and ride in the stroller plus she can't walk a far as I like to walk so the only option I have is to buy a wagon and pull her.
Thursday, February 3, 2011
What Makes A Mother
I have posted a poem that was shared on my online support group for women who have experienced a molar pregnancy. This poem applies to any mother who has lost a child/children. I cried the first time that I read it and feel in love with it. Maybe this poem will help me get through the next two weeks. It's hard to believe that my due date is two weeks from tomorrow. :-( I am getting more anxious as the time gets closer and I am not sure how I am going to react. I will be alone....Greg won't be here with me and while he does not understand my emotions at times...It's just going to be a lonely process for the day and the days leading up to it. I know I have friends and family, but it's just not the same. There is not a day that goes by that I do not stare and/or rub my hand our my tattoo or look at the ring that we got in July. I have a small simple white gold ring that has a heart in the middle with the birthstone for February...I will always wear this ring and remember why I wear it.
For now my little ones sit in Heaven with God looking down on me. I know it is selfish to have wanted them, but God needed them there. I at least know that they are where there is no pain. For all I know, Papa probably has them fishing or something. My Angels will be waiting for me.
For now my little ones sit in Heaven with God looking down on me. I know it is selfish to have wanted them, but God needed them there. I at least know that they are where there is no pain. For all I know, Papa probably has them fishing or something. My Angels will be waiting for me.
76 days and counting
Have you ever had that feeling that you can't win for losing? I kinda feel like that this morning. I woke up with a raspy voice and one side of my throat a little sore...I seriously contemplated just going back to sleep, but I fought the urge to lay back down and got up. Well, I finished my workout and to my surprise I feel the symptoms of a UTI coming on! Really? Come on....Now I must go search for AZO...LOL. I drink plenty of water everyday so hopefully that will help too. I guess I will see.
This evening has been very frustrating. I still have no voice and Cadence was in rare form tonight. I'm not sure why, but she had a smart mouth remark for everything and thought that she was going to tell me what to do. I had to put her in time out twice and we have a talk about what happened and why she got in trouble. What pushed me over was when she picked up the febreeze air freshener and pointed it at me...keep in mind she is a foot from my face. I told her that she had better not spray that in my face. Sure enough, she did! After time out and her bath, we had another discussion. I asked her if she thought that we liked putting her in time out and taking things away from her. She said, "no." She apologized and then wanted to be rewarded with a Popsicle. Needless to say, she did not get it and is in bed now. I know kids will test boundaries just to see how much they can get away with and I am sure that it doesn't help with Greg being gone, but at the same time it's not like this is anything new. I told her that it was not nice to disrespect anyone in that manner. I guess she was just having a bad night, but it all ended well. She learned her lesson, apologized and we talked things out.
Other than that, the rest of the day was nice. Despite being cold, I got a touch of cabin fever today because the sun was out shining and it just looked so nice.
This evening has been very frustrating. I still have no voice and Cadence was in rare form tonight. I'm not sure why, but she had a smart mouth remark for everything and thought that she was going to tell me what to do. I had to put her in time out twice and we have a talk about what happened and why she got in trouble. What pushed me over was when she picked up the febreeze air freshener and pointed it at me...keep in mind she is a foot from my face. I told her that she had better not spray that in my face. Sure enough, she did! After time out and her bath, we had another discussion. I asked her if she thought that we liked putting her in time out and taking things away from her. She said, "no." She apologized and then wanted to be rewarded with a Popsicle. Needless to say, she did not get it and is in bed now. I know kids will test boundaries just to see how much they can get away with and I am sure that it doesn't help with Greg being gone, but at the same time it's not like this is anything new. I told her that it was not nice to disrespect anyone in that manner. I guess she was just having a bad night, but it all ended well. She learned her lesson, apologized and we talked things out.
Other than that, the rest of the day was nice. Despite being cold, I got a touch of cabin fever today because the sun was out shining and it just looked so nice.
77 days and counting
This weather can drive me nuts at times. The wind kept me up most of the night, but I still got up to exercise. Before leaving for work, I discovered that our tree in the backyard was uprooted and partially landed on the neighbors shed. It doesn't look like there is any damage, but will be a mess to clean up. Luckily, Greg will be in town this weekend since he is leaving for AZ on Monday.
I also managed to lose my voice today which doesn't help when you have a little one. Please come back...
I also managed to lose my voice today which doesn't help when you have a little one. Please come back...
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
78 days and counting
Oh man, this morning was killer. I am super super tired. I even debated whether or not to get up. I sat in my bed for 2 minutes and then told myself....No gain no pain! I am worth it and I need to make the sacrifice in order to become a better me! I could easily lay down and fall asleep now. Haha.Cadence woke up in the middle of the night. She had an accident...Poor thing.
I am noticing that my workouts are getting easier and my heartrate is not getting as high as it did when I started. I guess 13 pounds gone off your body can make that kind of difference. I am thinking that I may need to do Zumba every other day and something else in between. We will see...
So I have been giving a lot of thought to running a 5k. I have never done anything like this before and I know that it will require a lot of training. I am ready for a challenge. I have the plan on how to train utilizing a treadmill. Now comes the hard part....trying to figure out how to work it into my schedule. My mother-in-law has the treadmill and I could get to her house earlier to do it, but that means getting things going earlier at home....hhhhmmmm. The Couch to 5k plan is a 30 minute plan so that's not too bad, but I will have to allow additional time to shower at her house...no one wants to be around the stinky kid. LOL....let me ponder and figure this out.
I see an early bedtime coming tonight!
I am noticing that my workouts are getting easier and my heartrate is not getting as high as it did when I started. I guess 13 pounds gone off your body can make that kind of difference. I am thinking that I may need to do Zumba every other day and something else in between. We will see...
So I have been giving a lot of thought to running a 5k. I have never done anything like this before and I know that it will require a lot of training. I am ready for a challenge. I have the plan on how to train utilizing a treadmill. Now comes the hard part....trying to figure out how to work it into my schedule. My mother-in-law has the treadmill and I could get to her house earlier to do it, but that means getting things going earlier at home....hhhhmmmm. The Couch to 5k plan is a 30 minute plan so that's not too bad, but I will have to allow additional time to shower at her house...no one wants to be around the stinky kid. LOL....let me ponder and figure this out.
I see an early bedtime coming tonight!
79 days and counting
Today was weigh-in day and for the first time I gained! I only gained 0.4 pounds. While there are really no excuses, mother nature was making her monthly visit (sorry if this is tmi for some) plus while I did not go over 2,000 calories the entire weekend...I did go over my daily allotted calories. In combination, it makes sense. I'm not upset about it. I know that it happens just like at some point I will hit a plateau and the workout routine's I am doing won't work as well. I am already coming up with a few things to mix it up. I just hope it continues to work.
Oh, and Greg found out today that he will be going to AZ for another detail. That means he will be gone for another 45 days. I guess the upside is that I can work my butt off during the next 45 days and see what happens. LOL. Here goes nothing.
Oh, and Greg found out today that he will be going to AZ for another detail. That means he will be gone for another 45 days. I guess the upside is that I can work my butt off during the next 45 days and see what happens. LOL. Here goes nothing.
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